I don’t laugh hard enough when my friends show me a meme
Gotta face it I gotta reputation for being mean
I’m not worried to fall in that category
I’m too arrogant to share my side of the story
I’m not too proud to admit when I took a loss
Stuck my hands in dirt got up and I dusted it off
Skills I had to hone mine
Damn I need alone time
Time is money I got no interest to loan time
Ever met a homebody that hate to be alone?
Really bad at texting but hate to talk on the phone?
Cold shoulder don’t you cry on me
Attachment bring anxiety
Need to separate at the moment I feel you tied to me
Am I tripping?
I need to keep a distance to inspire you
Exercise my freedom to leave the moment I’m tired of you
Tires roll but my passenger seat empty
Annoyed when you hit me at times when I’m not busy
How can I explain my silence ain’t disrespect?
How can I explain that my distance ain’t just neglect?
Music is the outlet where I pen my regrets
Unplug when I’m done but shocked that I can’t connect
I wanted to take a .22 to shoot myself at 22
Deep connection couldn’t fake it if I wanted to
I can speak to all of you but I can’t speak to one of you
If a gun was at my head for-real would I have the guts to pull it?
I don’t know cause I don’t have no money for the bullets
Back and forth scenarios my mind began to wonder
Pulling trigger takes some follow through
That’s my biggest problem
Attending seminars in hopes to change the feeling
Alternative to dying to escape the pain of living
David and Goliath
Raise my level or it’s over
It’s hard to toss a pebble with this bolder on my shoulder
Antisocial I want to be alone
Accustomed to the prison in my mental being home
Gucci belt won’t hold you up
You feel them knees buckle
Hit the floor and pray to God
It feel like he don’t love ya
I need alone time
I don’t even own my own mind
Not for a long time
I need alone time
My heart beating fast
Can it slow down?